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Monsters, juries and insecurities

The previous post talked about an old story, this will rather speak of a very recent. "Homecoming" was born a few months ago, in a writing exercise automatically in the Multiverse. If the story of the previous post is my past, this is my present, if one was to thank some friends here I have to give it to others: a Bry and Knight, who inspired him, and nothing else read Manchi me said: "Send it to Monsters of Reason."

I think it looks great this story, I was happy with it, something I can not say everything I write and finally we did Manchi case and presented it to the monsters, thinking that would have a chance.

When you send a story to a contest two things can happen, a lot of gigs you a story and send it thinking that you have a chance, or send anything you have out there knowing that it will not add up but overall, if you send school. I usually happens when I think I have a chance do not get anything and when I think I sent a churro, it appears that these stories end up liking. Anyway, it does not matter in most contests send the story and forget until the day of the results, sometimes you're lucky, sometimes not.

The Monsters of Reason do not forget at any time.

In a contest in which the accounts are on public display and you can leave comments measuring the potential you can have yours, if the comments are positive you dare, if negative see that the story has not reached the people, but there is also a third option, that you have no comment. That's the most frustrating, because I do not know if people would look so bad on account of thing you discuss it or if it's indifference, which is also bad.

And then, much like your story, you start to spin, and see fewer and fewer possibilities. Reread and wonder what's going wrong, what is wrong, each passing day think it was a mistake to introduce, and give him round and round until you get discouraged completely. The competition organizers also had me on my nerves. Asked to vote when I hung up the stories, it was September, had plenty of time to read and comment, but a month had not yet been assigned a group to vote, reminded the forum a couple of times he had no group, there were other participants in my situation. Every time I had less time, saw that the deadline was put on top. Overwhelmed and discouraged at the same time, bad combination. A one week later they sent me the group finally had to vote, was one of the weeks was more overwhelmed with a lot of work and other projects with a deadline on it. I considered would be withdrawn and no vote. why? told me. I have no possibilities nor I have time. So Manchi again: "You vote to see if you have voted even if you comment and you're out" (not literally, my memory is not enough for both).

Again, I I ignored it. The last day, in extremis, without which I had time to comment, I read six stories pull and voted.

And the next day I see the list of results y. .. I'm not in it. Well, it was what I expected. I noticed that the first jury award finalist and the groups was the same story, but did not give much importance, then I saw that story had been removed twice from the list of public and had gone to the sixth shortlist crowd favorite story: mine. OO

That was the moment of rush, was the sixth in the list despite having no comment on the story. I was not expecting, I thought my story would be buried in the depths of the standings. It's something I see in myself and other fellow writers. We never thought we have been at hand, we have been among the last discarded, we always think that our story has not liked anything that was neither considered even that has been forgotten and alone in last place in the standings. Sometimes I wonder why we are so negative, why do not we trust a little more of ourselves. Everything influences when evaluating a story, not only that the story is good, we must also consider how the stories are tall are you, if that makes stories like yours does not stand out, or perhaps there are other stories that would better suit the contest or the likes of the jury happened to me when I voted there were two stories he had read before and, as I knew, I was called less attention to reading new stories. Everything influences.

In the end I was well on the Monsters of Reason, after having cast rebound in the list of finalists reached the final votes and there climbed to fourth in the voting public and I snuck in the vote tercerdo jury, much better result than I expected. What was the difference? Compete with other stories, different people voting who liked my story more than they voted for the first time. And yet, everything has been lucky, because if instead of removing the repeated story of the public vote would have removed from the jury's vote would have been another story which would have gone to the list of finalists and would never have known I had been there at the gates, and be depressed because one of my favorite stories of the past I have written that had come to like anyone.

And I say that from now on I will be positive and always think they can not succeed for a short ... but deep down I know that next time again to eat the head as now, the uncertainty is something that, however much they do not want, part of me. And many of you.